I know, we're 4 days in to the new year and i haven't posted yet. The monsters are on break til TOMORROW and things have been nuts. The youngest got his official diagnosis on monday and started his meds tuesday am. the "magic pudding" has been amazing and i hope that the difference we've noticed translates to school. He has his psych intake wed am to see what companion disorders he has (i'm going with anxiety) and so i can get a psych report to use to help me get modifications to his iep. of course, nothing in my world is simple and we're expecting subzero wind chills starting wednesday am....so i'll probably be lugging his siblings to the appointment and just keeping them home afterwards because i just can't make myself be in three places at once and i don't have a support system...if i did, i wouldn't be a stay at home mommy!
I have also been dealing with the grief from losing my sweet Lexie a week ago today. The pain is intense..the pain is very real. Grief never goes away and it never gets easier. The reality is that she left us because she loved us. this sounds nuts..i know. but its true. the demons she fought were real. she could no longer be the parent, child, friend, sister, aunt that she thought we all deserved. There was nothing any of us could have done to change her mind. The grieving time is over..its time to celebrate my baby bunnie and the amazing life that she lived. i love her so...i will never quit loving her. Every day i will do my best to live in a way that honors her and is an example to her sweet Ryry of how her mother lived.
Today, there is an auction going on on instagram for her and Ryry. its a great opportunity to get something cool for yourself and help my girls. simply follow: auntie_mare_bear on instagram everything you need to know about the auction is there.
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